Musical cancelled.......:(

Though I hoped that the musical could somehow go on. Unfortunately, it didn't. The poor morale and response of everyone except for the few of us could not convice our artiste manager to continue the musical. Whats worse was that many of us could answer the questions that she asked us. And hardly anyone voiced out to her despite encouragemts by myself, Yihan, Romeo and the others. In the end, things got so bad that our artiste manager burst into tears. That did it, and with that the meeting ended.

I felt sorry that I couldn't be able to lift up the morale of the people there. Now I can hope that she will calm down, and pick herself up again. Till then I will continue to pray for her, and visit her and I have the time. I suppose this is the least I can do as an artiste under, or a friend.

I look forward to the day when we can all work together again. To all who are reading this blog, take note. If you really want to do something, just go all out and do it. Don't let anything hold you back and don't be afraid to stand up for what you believe in.....

Musical cancelled or continues???

What a day. Gina made the decision to cancel the musical despite pleas from some of us for reasons that were instinctively obvious. Lack of committment, time, preparation, etc....

The thing that pleased me however was that Gina, gave great credit to myself, Andreas, Romeo, Yihan and a few others who had committed wholeheartedly to the musical and came faithfully for every rehearsals. It really put us in a very positive light. I was so touched by the words spoken by Gina during yesterday's meeting that I cried. It was here, where Gina truly earned my respect and trust. Indeed, she is a great leader and I am honoured to work with her. I look forward to working with Gina and learning more stuff from her in future. (Hey, she was supposed to teach me how to do the fact sheet right?") No matter, I will bug her to teach me soon enough. :)

The positive sms from Eliza, Xinru and many others helped to encourage me to. I am glad that my efforts to stand up for them, to help them paid off. Thanks Guys, you all are wonderful friends to be with. Even if the musical was not successful, I am glad I have at least made some good friends among the artistes working with me. I am really very touched by Yihan's strong desire for the musical to go on. Despite my skeptisim, I agreed to give him my support. However, its not enough. I will need the full support and committment of the other artistes too. As the saying goes "it takes to hand to clap". On our own, we can only do so much. But with everyone joining in and giving their support, we can create miracles and make a difference. Much as I feel I need to rest, I sincerely hope that Yihan's efforts will pay off. Not because, I see him and the others as fellow artitstes, but because I see them as friends and comrades in arms.

May the Lord create a mircale this time round, I pray. Amen.

Eventful saturday

Things happened at UAN today. Apparently Janet and the rest of the management team were not too happy with our performances. I must say that they were right in some ways. A few of the artistes have been training for the musical for so long. By now, they should be familiar with the songs.

But the good thing was, at least they are familiar with their roles, and that makes me pleased. In particular, Romeo, Kim and Yi Han were really good. There's so much I can learn from their acting. Plus they are really committed. I highighted a couple of important points during the evaluation last night. I sincerely hope that every who was present there would bear these in mind. Why are performing and working so hard for?For this musical, it is important for us to sing, dance and to act well. We also have to be committed to the roles that is assigned to us. But all these are the basics, all these are the foundations.

The more important thing that I hoped that everyone would bear in mind is that they are performing for these 3 reasons:

1. We work so hard because we want to give a performance that can touch the hearts of everyone who watch us.
2. We want to set a standard for future UAN artistes to follow.
3. We want to let our parents, friends and loved ones be proud of the effort and hard work that we all have put into this musical.

I really hope we all can bear all these points in mind. We are either going to do it well or screw it. I was rather perturbed when Gina and the others mentioned that they wanted to disband the musical. I pleaded for our guys against it. I've done all I can. I hope that Gina will give us this chance to do our best again. I sincerely believe that everyone can do their very best for this musical. I know it, the Lord knows it. To all those who are reading my blog here, I hope you guys will bear these in points in mind as well. Take care and God bless.

Deliverance

It's been a while since I pdated this Blog. Too many things to do..... Any Today's a sunday woth being remembered ...... I went down to church for the Mike Connell service. Truth be known, I did not felt like going in the beginning. But somehow I just went. I must say, this is definitely one memorable service. As Pastor Mike preached in his sermons, I felt fearful and agitated.... I could hardly stop my legs and hands from shaking. And worse still, I couldn't even concentrate on the sermon.

In the end I stayed on for the deliverance service and went forward for the altar call. Boy, it was really a nightmare as the unclean spirits were expelled from my body. I was held down by more than 5 men and kept shouting in voices that were not my own. And I kept coughing and crying non stop. Thankfully, the evil spirits from my body were cast out and I was successfully delivered. Praise the Lord!

Shawn spoke to me after the service ended. Through talking to him, I realised that I had neglected my prayer life, which was the most important thing I needed to do. It was time, for me to get back on track in my walk with the Lord again despite my busy schedules. I believe that starting from today, things will start getting better. I pray that as I continue persuing my dreams and doing my work, the Lord will be there to watch over me and guide me. Amen!!!

Working sunday

Finally I can start to relax abit after so long. Managed to complete another powerpoint slide at last. Both good and bad things happened over the past few days. I will not speak of the bad things since it only dampens the mood......After all its over, I hope........

Managed to get my new makeover photos from O Studio. I am quite pleased that it turned out well. The photo on the left is one of my favourites. Hahahaha! Well worth the 120 bucks. One of my friends commented I looked just like Constantine. Hahahaha! What a nice complement. May the Lord bless her for that.

Saturday was good. Managed to pass the audtions for the NUS Charity Concert with my 2 songs Sacrifice and My Love. I'll probably replace "My love" with "The Reason". Service was great too. Rev Robb preached a very great message and I really felt the Holy Spirit;s presence in church. Too bad I did not see Bavis there though. I was hoping she'd come. She's defintely enjoy this.

Sunday, spent the whole day doing the freaking powerpoint for my boss. Thank God I finished it already. It was a good thing Guoyuan did some of the stuff earlier. If not I doubt I'd be able to finish it so soon. I owe him a treat. I've decided not to go back to camp tonight, so that I could stay online and chat with my friends a little longer. At the same time, I was also hoping for "her" to come online so that I could get to talk to "her". Well, can't demand too much. Sometimes things will not come when the time is not ripe. I guess I'll have to continue waiting and praying. Till then, I will continue to improve myself and set new standards in my performances in UAN. Continue to strive harder and learn as much as I can from the artistes around me. May I become succeed in becoming a great artiste one day!!! Tomorrow is a new day, a new beginning. I pray to the Lord that my boss will accept the work that I have done and stop bothering me again after tomorrow. May it be done in Jesus name. In the mean time I hope that the Lord will open up more opportunites for me to get to know "her" better in future...... Who is it??? You guys may ask. I'll not reveal it now. I'll only reveal her when the time is right.

Life updates

Things have been pretty busy lately. Not suprsing why i fell sick today. After all, what can you expect when you only slept for 3 hours for the past 3 days? And during the times you are awake, you practically work non-stop. Even a machine or robot would break down after working like this.

At least there are good things that have happened though. I have been put into creative alliance in UAN, whereby I will learn about backstage staff and artistemanagement and so on. Truth be known, its not something that I am too familiar with. But one has to start some somewhere right? After all, I will be dealing with creative stuff when I start schooling in september. Might as well get a headstart. To me, its a golden opportunity for me to learn on the job experience in creative directing. Plus, this would help me open up another door of career opportunity in future. One has to make himself more marketable right?

Tommorow's the start of the new class. I can't wait to see what Elle and the others have to offer. I am quite sure that I will not leave tomorrow's creative alliance class empty handed. Any way I will update this page again when i return tomorrow. :P

My thoughts

Sometimes, it just takes one person to spoil your entire day. Like my boss for instance. I was just having my nap in my bunk when he called my hp, demanding to see me in his office. Before I know, I was screwed by him for almost half an hour. And it was not even 8am in the morning. Kinda sucky isn't it? I've been doing so many stuff for him and yet he doesn't even appreciate it. Not even a simple word of "Thank You". Instead what i got was scoldings, scoldings and more scoldings..... This sucks. Been like that for the past 1 week.

True, my stuff may not be up to HIS standard, but that doesn't give him a reason to keep scolding me and directing all sorts of swear words and curses at me. After all, I did put in my effort to do the tasks for it. My friends know it, God knows it. Fine, since he does not appreciate my help, I'll not do anything to help him anymore. After all, why bother helping someone who doesn't even appreciate ymy help? I'd rather use that time and effort to do more meaningful stuff or at least on someone who would appreciate my kindess. Godwilling, I believe I will be able to find that place where people can appreciate me for who I am and the things I do.

People are always asking me "Mel, when are you going to find a girlfriend?" I'd always answer them "I'm trying to "fish" one." This gets pretty annoying at times. True, I have been single for many years....... Not that I can't find a girlfriend, but things were always not in my favour...... Those that I aimed were either attached, totally had no feelings for me, don't want to get into BGR and the list just goes on......... Or worse, they pretend to like you, but end up cheating you of your feelings and money before dumping you.......

Many times I would ask the Lord "What on earth have I done to deserve being alone without a companion?" If this was a retribution because of something I'd done, then I think I've paid more than enough for it. While I may look cheerful, happy go-lucky and carefree on the surface, deep down I am actually sad and lonely at times. When I am sad, I'd sing a song of love, depending on what song comes to mind. Or I'd go to the seaside. The tranquility of the sea and the melody of the songs would soothe and comfort me......giving me encouragement and hope for the future.

I don't ask for much in a relationship. So long as my companion is faithful and honest with me, be understanding and remains contactable, thats all I need. I don't claim that I can give everything and anything. But what I guarantee I will give is "Faithfullness, love, understanding, care and finally a close companion who will always be there in both times of joy and sorrow."

Some people may feel that I am talking nonsence or that I am being too naive or hypocritical. If they want to think that way, let them do so. After all, its me. I have the right to feel what I want to feel, to do what I want to do and to believe what I want to believe. Who has the right to stop me? Do I care? Of course not! Why should I let the comments of others influence my feelings and way of thinking? If I were to do that, I'd be no different from a puppet. Sheesh.... Godwilling, I too believe that I will find that "person", that companion who will undertand, compliment and treasure me for who I am one day......Amen